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| Fucking brother pt 2 |
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So of course my brother and his girlfriend couldn’t take care of the dog, so they took it back to the humane society. I’m pretty sure it was put down since it was already a third chance dog when they got it and then they took it back. Then today I found out that they went and adopted on of Pegasus’ brothers, because he was returned. I’m seriously pissed. I’ve wanted an Australian Shepherd for years, hell, I’ve wanted a dog for years. I never planned on getting a puppy necessarily. Pegasus was too perfect and I’m glad my parents got him for me, but then my brother just assumed he needs one too even though he won’t take care of him. He’s a puppy, and if he’s anything like Pegasus he’s going to be very hyper and need a lot of attention. Honestly, I bust my ass for five years, I’m clearly the more responsible one who will take care of my puppy, but he just gets to go and get one, no consequences. He wanted a car last year, my mom ended up buying it for him. She told me today she did because she expected he would take me to and from school. Ha, that never happened. No, he just took it out to go to parties and get back at like 4AM, and to go to the middle of nowhere and steal stop signs. A car is a fucking inanimate object and he can’t even take care of that. It’s already given out once and my grandma paid for that to be fixed. He never paid her back. He was supposed to pay my mom back to for the car, but that never happened. He was also supposed to pay my mom for his phone when he got in in high school. That never happened. His car stopped running a second time. Again, it wasn’t him that paid for the guy to come and work on it. And at that time the guy said he needed to get it fixed fixed or get a new car within a few months because it was going to give out for good. That was in December, he’s done nothing, and it’s not running great. It’s going to give out and I know my family is going to bail him out again and probably buy him a new car. Hey, I’m looking for a job, but I’ll just keep taking the bus until I can get my own car. He’s supposedly getting an apartment this month, hah, yeah right. He’ll need a cosigner for sure, and I’m sure yet again my parents will do that for him. Then since he’s such a fucking dumbass and just spends his money frivolously they won’t have money for rent, and my family will bail him out again. Just watch, he’s going to get sick of this puppy, and my parents are going to end up taking care of him. Then he’ll get another, and another, and it will just keep going. My family will always bail him out. I’ll always have to work my ass off to get what I want.| The good, the bad, the FUCKING AWESOME |
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So yes, it has indeed been quite some time since I’ve written anything about my ongoings of life that have nothing to do with school. And strangely enough, I find that without school I have time to do things that aren’t school related, that is, have some kind of life. I never realized how badly school took over my life. Well, I did, but that’s not what this is about. This is not school stuff here, this is life stuff. Mostly winter break stuff, and the contents of this post will be all over the place. Also, this will probably be a very long post if I can remember everything. Because I was going to post before the new year, but then I got distracted with stuff and…yeah. Also, because for some reason I got distracted with other things, this post has things from like a week of writing it. | And it’s over |
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Posted by Amber on December 13th, 2012
Filed under: School
My first music class. Didn’t have a final. The class itself was an easy A. Attendance itself was 100 points, which was quite a bit of the total points. Two papers 100 points, where we had to go to concerts and write about them. Did I do that? No, I didn’t have money to waste on a concert. I BSed both papers. I just looked at the programs online and did my papers off of that. Got full points for them. There was more stuff, but pretty much this class was just based on effort. My second music class. I didn’t go to class the last month. I looked over the slides (and the professor didn’t even post all the slides) one time for not even an hour before that final, and I scored one point less on the final than I did on the midterm, during which I went to class and studied slightly more (although not much more). That class was yet another easy A. Microbiology. I know, I was taking it over again for a better grade, but still you’d think it would be a bit more of a challenge. For all the exams in the class including the final, I just skimmed the chapters I needed to know, looked over the slides once, then took the exam. Got B’s on all of them, my grade getting higher each one. With the other assignments in the class, I easily earned an A in there as well. So my best semester yet, three A’s and… I don’t know yet. I’m hoping for a C. The only way I could get a legitimate C in the class is if I got a high A on the final. I’m doubtful, although I’m almost positive that I at least passed it. Of course, the professor said that he would probably end up lowering the cut off points for grades, so I’m hoping I hit that C cutoff point. I worked so hard in the class. I studied daily, and in this final week before the exam I put in over thirty hours of studying. Despite all that I didn’t feel prepared, but I went in trying not to think too much about it. I finished the entire exam (which I hadn’t been able to do during the hourly exams through the semester), so I’ll just have to wait and see. The waiting will be killing me. I’ll just leave this post as school stuff. I don’t have much life stuff going on, but since I haven’t written anything in awhile I’ll probably post something else later today. Tags: biochem, finals, School |
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So the first thing I will write about is a good thing, I guess. Good for me. It makes me happy. So, there’s no denying it. For most of my life, especially my teen years, I was fat. Not fat, but FAT. Technically, by looking at BMI I was obese. However, I never looked as bad as some fat people do because I’m taller so it distributed better or something? I don’t know. What I do know is that at one point in high school I was around 230 lbs, capable of wearing a size 20 even though I usually stuck with an 18, and…well, what more is there to say? Hell, I even had trouble sitting cross legged at times, I’m assuming because the fat made circulation in my legs poor or something. I recall I also couldn’t touch my toes at one point. Well, that’s all the bad. Around my senior year of high school I was around 215, still way heavier than I should have been. However, all of that shit is in the past. My freshman year of high school, just from all the walking/biking I had to do around campus I managed to get under 200 for the first time probably since middle school. Kept it around there sophomore year. Of course during the summer I would end up gaining almost ten back. Then junior year, when I moved into an apartment, I decided that I was going to kick my ass into shape. With the help of my Wii (playing EA Sports Active) and watching my food intake a bit more I managed to drop almost thirty pounds, to get around 180. Senior year I didn’t get a chance to exercise much since I had an upstairs apartment. Then this year, my fifth and final year of undergrad, I decided I was going to finish what I started, and thus far I’ve done pretty well. I’ve dropped ten pounds in the past two and a half months, and I’m only about ten pounds from a healthy BMI. I’m at just under 175 right now, and my first goal is 164. My end weight goal will probably be around the mid 150′s, mostly because I’m calculating muscle into that. Because, you know, I don’t want to be some random skinny chick, I want to be fit, with some abs and buff arms, which is already a work in progress (I flex and you can barely feel any fat, even though I have tons of it on my arms Okay, onto something different now. |
So it’s been forever since I did an actual post about stuff. I’ve decided since I did so well getting stuff done for school yesterday that tonight is my off night, and tomorrow I start studying hardcore for my biochem exam. So, I guess I have time to write about lots of stuff, or at least as much as I can think of.
) And while I’m on the subject, I will promote MyFitnessPal. It’s a website but also an app you can get for free on your smartphone/tablet/whatever, that helps you figure out how many calories you should be consuming daily, and let’s you keep track of your food intake and exercise. I think that has helped me more than anything along with the exercising, because exercising was keeping me at a steady weight, but I wasn’t losing much. So if anyone ever wants to lose weight and stuff, I would definitely suggest it, it helps. | So yeah |
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So…Shark Week was a couple weeks ago. I was going to post something, but I guess I didn’t. I enjoy Shark Week. I’d like if they had some new informational shows though instead of just stories and camera stuff. School is…tiring. I go three days a week really, and have all my classes within a four hour period of time. Getting from my third to last class is difficult, because the damn professor keeps going after class is technically over so I have to run halfway across campus, trying to push through a few hundred people on the way, all while dodging construction and bikes. Then I get to my last class and have to find an odd seat somewhere. Monday it was by a douche bag frat guy…I didn’t enjoy that. I only have biochem discussion Tuesday, and then nothing Thursday. So today I was doing a bunch of homework and studying, since I had no class. I like my new apartment. It’s more expensive than my old one, but much nicer and quieter. And front my apartment door to the bus stop is maybe 40 steps. So bus is really close. I need money. I’ve applied to so many jobs, haven’t heard back from any of the places. I’m thinking about just going and playing my violin on the street. Probably wouldn’t make much money though. Jan Brewer is a fucking idiot. No explanation is needed for that. More money issues. I saved a crapload of money buying books online. Didn’t even need them. Had to buy different stuff for the class (online homework, e-book, and a keyboard for my basic musicianship class) so I’ve spent well over 150 dollars that I couldn’t really afford to use. Football game Saturday, yay…I don’t get the channel it’s on, boo…well, I’m really waiting for basketball in the end. Can’t wait to see how these new recruits do. This is a basketball school. Baseball won the championship this year, basketball needs to get on it so I can get my champ shirt for b-ball to go with my baseball one. Okay done now. Sleepy. Need to go exercise a bit. Couldn’t heavy exercise today because my left calf. Can still do strength stuff today though. Bye bye Tags: apartment, life, money, School |
I haven’t posted on here in a while about anything but my teeth. I’m really tired right now, so maybe when I have more energy I’ll write a meaningful post. Just random stuff for now. |
I’ll get to what my summer ongoings have been. First off, physics. It’s exhausting. Two days a week, five and a half hours of class straight. But I’m about a third of the way done, and get this, I have an A in there right now. I wasn’t too confident after the exam last week, I was just hoping for a C on it, but I ended up getting a 94. The issue now is keeping that A. Much earlier in the summer I marathoned Smash with my mom since she hadn’t seen it yet and I had no problem watching it again. It made me realize how difficult it is going to be waiting until next spring for the new season to start. It was amazing. Yesterday I went to the park to play sand volleyball. It was at night of course because it’s too damn hot to do anything in the summer outside. I hate going to class because I have to wait outside. Anyway, I was the only one who was into it. By the end of the night the bottom half of my pants were completely brown from the sand. I was the only one willing to dive to for it. Right quick too: Arizona made it to the CWS, and beat Florida State despite being bet against in that game. Going to be up against UCLA next. Okay, now onto LoK (more…) Tags: avatar, college, School, tv |
I know I saved some icons from LoK (I was particularly looking for one of the Lin ones) but I couldn’t seem to find them so I’m just going to go with the Gaang. All I will say for now is this: this week’s episode. Holy…I’ll get to it last under the cut so I don’t spoil anything.| Friendship is fucking magic. And fun |
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And I must mention the lovely new layout that Megan made for me. It features my favorite character from Fullmetal Alchemist (Brotherhood anime), Olivier Mira Armstrong. As soon as she first appeared in the manga I was completely taken over by her awesomeness. Tags: mlp, School |
I don’t think I ever declared this online, but I’m a brony. Technically pegasister, but brony just sounds so much better, so I go by brony. I’m amazed I’ve never posted about it before. I won’t get into it, but if you haven’t you have to watch MLP: FiM. Just give it a chance. A few episodes, because although I felt the first two were a bit cheesy I started to enjoy it from there. But the point of this post is to inform people that while at Target today I saw a MLP:FiM coloring and activity book (over 400 coloring pages and activities) and my eyes lit up. My mother apparently noticed this and asked if I wanted it. I told her no, because it was five dollars, but she ended up buying it for me anyway. It’s nice to know my mother has no issue with her 22 year old daughter loving both coloring and ponies. I tried to show her an episode on Netflix today (just This Day Aria actually, because the song is amazing) and she didn’t seem to amazed. I also learned it’s awkward to watch MLP if not by myself or with other bronies. The book is getting good use. I colored quite a bit of it already, it kept me not bored. Even though I could be doing grown up things, like studying for Japanese since I’m taking 415 in the fall, or studying for the GRE. It’ll be gotten to, I should enjoy my little bit of summer before I start physics on Tuesday. | contacts, buses and finals |
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I feel I should write a bit about yesterday, which was horrible. I got something in my left eye like halfway through the day, and since I had my contacts in I couldn’t rub. Normally I tear up for a few minutes and whatever was there gets flushed out, my eyes are good at taking care of themselves. But whatever this was, it wasn’t coming out. All through physics, and the hour and a half it took me to get home, I was in some of the worst pain I’ve ever been in. When I finally got home I took my contacts out and flushed my eye with water for like five minutes. By the evening the pain had almost completely gone away. Things wouldn’t have been so bad if the buses did suck ass. I knew I’d have to wait like a half hour for the bus because I always just barely miss the one to go home after getting off the first one. However, the one that I was expecting to catch was full, so the drive just drove right by the stop. Another half hour of standing in the sun and heat, with my entire head in pain. Then it got worse. A few minutes before the bus got there I nearly blacked out from everything. I felt like I was going to vomit for a few minutes, I was starting to lose both my sight and hearing and my entire body went tingly and numb. I have no clue how I managed to walk up to the bus when it got there, but luckily some guy gave me his seat. I really wish I had a car, then I would have been home way earlier and in general wouldn’t have to deal with the shit the buses put me through. Well, back to studying. I got a few hours in today, want to get through at least half of the recorded lecture tomorrow. Tags: college, finals, life, School, stupid buses |
So the professor for microbial genetics put up the grades as of now, and what they are with the curve. I’m not doing as bad as I thought. I have a D without the curve (I thought I had an F) and with the curve I’m just one point shy of a C (I’m at a C-). So now all that’s left is the final… I’m not going to hope for anything better than a C. I want one, I’ve always wanted one, but I’ve known it’s not possible. All I need to do on the final is get around what everyone else does, and I’ll get my passing C. I’ll never have to look at microbial genetics again.| I give up |
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Posted by Amber on April 15th, 2012
Filed under: School
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I have two and a half weeks of class left, then a week of finals, but I’m…urgh. My microbial genetics professor finally posted grades for the third exam. I don’t think I wrote here about that, since I was busy studying for it, so I will now. I went to every lecture and recorded every one. I would then hand write the notes from the slides at home and spend over an hour on each lecture re-listening to it and writing in extra things he said in class that wasn’t on the slides. Writing all the notes probably took about four or five hours, plus about nine or so hours listening to the lectures. So roughly thirteen hours just to make the notes. Then there was the studying. In the week before the exam, I probably went over the notes, explaining them to myself for two hours a day, so figure that took about another eight hours of my time. For the pictures in the slides, I used my whiteboard and would draw them out, explaining the stuff to myself out loud as I did so. That was probably a couple hours. So, altogether that was close to twenty-five hours of studying for this exam. I skipped watching a couple of games for this exam, and it was March Madness. I don’t ignore the Madness. I wasn’t happy with my grades on the previous two, so I made sure that I knew the material. Then on the day of the exam I got there around fifteen minutes early to start it early and just barely managed to finish. Unlike the other exams, I answered all but one question on this exam, and was confident enough. I was hoping to get at least in the 90′s (as in ninety-something out of one hundred fifty). But I didn’t. I got 70/150. I did worse than the first two. Sad thing is that’s around what most people got, and it’s a C with the curve. Looks like no matter what I try I’m getting a C in this class. I guess I should be grateful. Then again, there’s still the final I have to not completely bomb. | Maybe it doesn’t have to suck so much |
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Posted by Amber on March 23rd, 2012
Filed under: School
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