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|Shit I’ve been busy|
Title says it all. I won’t even be putting everything here, because it’s getting late and I’m ridiculously tired. Maybe sometime this week…
But yes, so busy. I’m getting ready (hopefully) to graduate, still need to meet with my advisor again. I made an appointment with her once and turns out I needed to go meet with someone else first to apply for degree candidacy, and then go see her. Hopefully I can get it next week. I’m not really sure where all my time has gone, but I’ve been so busy with school stuff. There’s less than a month of school left yet I still have two papers and a presentation I need to do. Then of course there’s finals. And once I make sure I’m graduating there’s a lot to deal with for that. Then I need to start looking for a job, and getting ready to move out of my apartment. There’s so much more, I can’t even think about it all right now.
So…basketball is over, and that makes me sad. Now I have to wait until October for it to start again. And I’m looking forward to next year. Arizona has a great class coming in. We did last year too, but only made it to the Sweet 16, mostly because Ohio State had the refs on their side in the round of 32 and against Arizona. But Wichita State showed them. Coincidentally this also completely fucked up my bracket, I might as well have just symbolically burned the west region. I think, no, I know we can do it next year. National championship. We’re losing a lot of firepower and leadership, yes, but our freshman bigs from this year will have developed even more, and there’s some damn fine talent coming in at the 3 spot (taking the place of Hill/Parrom) in the form of Gordon and Hollis-Jefferson. Plus we will have fixed the biggest problem we had this year, the lack of a true point with McConnell being able to play finally.
I need to go to bed, but I will say one more thing. It shall be about TV. First…HOW DARE YOU. REALLY CARTOON NETWORK, REALLY? HOW DARE YOU. I hate CN with a freaking passion. There was so much more that could have been done with Young Justice. The fact that they prematurely canceled it meant that everything had to be tied up quickly, and then at the end they show Vandal Savage on Apokolips. REALLY? YOU’RE GOING TO TOTALLY INTRODUCE SUCH A BIG POSSIBLE NEW PLOT RIGHT ON YOUR LAST EPISODE? SO MEAN!! Oh, and Wally. HOW CAN YOU KILL OF WALLY? WHY WOULD YOU KILL HIM OFF? CN took of the best show they’ve ever had, and are replacing it with Teen Titans Go!, which looks like complete shit. Maybe it will have a decent plot like YJ and GLTAS did, but it has the same shitty animation as all of CN’s other shows. It’s disgusting how all that other shit gets to stay on but quality stuff like YJ doesn’t. I really hope that someone else picks it up. And the last thing I shall speak of is Doctor Who. I…I’ve never been overly fond of 11, I prefered 10 and the brief appearance of 9, but when he was with the Ponds it worked. Thus far with Clara I haven’t been that impressed. Modern London Clara is so boring compared to Dalek and Victorian Clara, but she has the potential to turn out a good companion. I just hope she isn’t another Martha, because luckily Martha was only the companion for a season, but I doubt Clara will be, and it she turns out to be like Martha, ehh… There needs to be another Donna like character. Donna deserved to have more than one season as a companion. She was unlikable at the beginning but traveling with the Doctor made her a better person, and she ended up saving the entire universe. Okay, done now, need to brush my teeth and go to bed. Class tomorrow, yay.Tags: basketball, doctor who, life, tv
|The good, the bad, the FUCKING AWESOME|
So yes, it has indeed been quite some time since I’ve written anything about my ongoings of life that have nothing to do with school. And strangely enough, I find that without school I have time to do things that aren’t school related, that is, have some kind of life. I never realized how badly school took over my life. Well, I did, but that’s not what this is about. This is not school stuff here, this is life stuff. Mostly winter break stuff, and the contents of this post will be all over the place. Also, this will probably be a very long post if I can remember everything. Because I was going to post before the new year, but then I got distracted with stuff and…yeah. Also, because for some reason I got distracted with other things, this post has things from like a week of writing it.basketball, college, Family, football, life, School
|And it’s over|
Posted by Amber on December 13th, 2012
Filed under: School
My first music class. Didn’t have a final. The class itself was an easy A. Attendance itself was 100 points, which was quite a bit of the total points. Two papers 100 points, where we had to go to concerts and write about them. Did I do that? No, I didn’t have money to waste on a concert. I BSed both papers. I just looked at the programs online and did my papers off of that. Got full points for them. There was more stuff, but pretty much this class was just based on effort.
My second music class. I didn’t go to class the last month. I looked over the slides (and the professor didn’t even post all the slides) one time for not even an hour before that final, and I scored one point less on the final than I did on the midterm, during which I went to class and studied slightly more (although not much more). That class was yet another easy A.
Microbiology. I know, I was taking it over again for a better grade, but still you’d think it would be a bit more of a challenge. For all the exams in the class including the final, I just skimmed the chapters I needed to know, looked over the slides once, then took the exam. Got B’s on all of them, my grade getting higher each one. With the other assignments in the class, I easily earned an A in there as well.
So my best semester yet, three A’s and… I don’t know yet. I’m hoping for a C. The only way I could get a legitimate C in the class is if I got a high A on the final. I’m doubtful, although I’m almost positive that I at least passed it. Of course, the professor said that he would probably end up lowering the cut off points for grades, so I’m hoping I hit that C cutoff point. I worked so hard in the class. I studied daily, and in this final week before the exam I put in over thirty hours of studying. Despite all that I didn’t feel prepared, but I went in trying not to think too much about it. I finished the entire exam (which I hadn’t been able to do during the hourly exams through the semester), so I’ll just have to wait and see. The waiting will be killing me.
I’ll just leave this post as school stuff. I don’t have much life stuff going on, but since I haven’t written anything in awhile I’ll probably post something else later today.Tags: biochem, finals, School
|That bummed feeling|
The title says it all. I don’t know why, but the bummed feeling keeps creeping up on me. Well, I can definitely think of things that would make it appear again, but that’s usually right after such an activity (e.g., studying my ass off for my biochem exam only to find I still failed it, just not as badly, meaning that the class I’m putting 90% of my effort into, the only one I need to graduate and had to stay an extra year for, is the only class I’m not passing). I don’t really feel like doing anything, but I do. I’m so damn sick of studying, but I still do it, because I need to pass biochem. Two hours a night, except last night, because I was getting my stupid report for microbiology done. It was somewhat difficult, not because of any extensive research, but because such little research and such general information was needed. I’m so used to writing much more complex papers, this one was just general info on a microbe of our choice. I knew a lot of the stuff already, but I needed sources. Also, I’m sick of my history of rock and pop class, particularly the Friday section, the one day I have to go because attendance is taken. Last week the assignment was to write down ten signs that could be related to and then discuss why with a small group. Took my group like ten minutes tops. Took pretty much all the groups that much time. How long was I stuck in class? About forty minutes, so about a half hour of doing nothing. Then this week we first got into the groups…actually, I’m going to rant about this a bit. I mean, seriously. The class has an assignment where you have to make a group recording of a song. I specifically write on my paper that I HATE rap music, yet the TA puts me in a group where most of the people like rap. Also a group where nobody has any knowledge of how to use Garage Band to make the stupid recording. Oh, and I’m going to choke every single person in my group if I don’t get an A on the damn project. Some groups have already started doing stuff, at least writing lyrics. My group doesn’t even know what genre our song will be, and there’s definitely no lyrics. According to them it’s going to be super easy, we’ll be able to bust it out in a weekend. All of them were also saying how the midterm was difficult. Haha…yeah, no. I spent barely any time studying for that damn thing, yet I’m sure I got an A. This is why I hate gen ed classes. It’s with a bunch of dumb asses that think it’s so difficult. Well, maybe if you had a real major instead of psychology (and yes, I do not believe psych is a real major) where you had to work a bit, or maybe if you came to lecture where the professor gives all the information, or if you had a real major and thus had to learn how to retain information from books, then it wouldn’t be difficult. Then maybe you’d also know that procrastination is a BAD idea, because something will go wrong or you’ll just run out of time. This entire semester I’ve gotten shit done way earlier than due dates, or I’ve started them early and worked on them slowly so I’m not pulling an all nighter before the due date. Damn, my rant got long. My point of this was that my group talked for maybe five minutes then sat there for like a half hour, after which we watched a couple videos of music mashups, then left. The more this semester goes on the more I’m not regretting adding that 400 level micro class next semester. Food Microbiology and Biotechnology, I thought it sounded really interesting when I first heard about it but I didn’t have time for it. Then taking this extra year I just wanted to focus on biochem, but this semester the only micro class I’m taking is gen micro for a better grade, and it’s boring and not challenging. Actually, I really wanted to correct the professor today. He was talking about hear immunity, and the flu shot, and how people who had gotten it were safe from the flu. WRONG DUDE. The influenza vaccine is only to try and prevent the flu, based on the most common influenza strains from the previous flu season. If the flu someone gets is a different strain from the vaccine then it won’t prevent anything. You know where I learned that? Virology, by the professor I first took gen micro from, and I got an A in virology. But I didn’t. Where was I…so yeah, I need an interesting course next semester or I’ll go insane.
Oh, and I hate Cartoon Network even more now than I did before. If you didn’t know (I don’t remember how old my last post is, so I don’t know if I had this in it) they fucking took Young Justice off after two episodes and a three month hiatus for yet another several month long hiatus. I watched the episode that was supposed to air online, and I am so pissed at them for stopping it there. Actually, I’m pissed that the didn’t show that FUCKING EPICNESS on tv, but also because they put it on hiatus at such a suspenseful time.
So…yeah, I’m still bummed. It’s not all from biochem. Part of it could be I’m getting off my happy high from my awesome weekend last weekend, which included apple picking, a delicious apple smoked burger, a huge ass piece of freshly made pie with homemade ice cream, some bomb fudge, apple bread, cider doughnuts, an ass kicking football game, and of course the Red-Blue game filled with promise of a national championship. Regardless of my mood, I know I must continue on. I still have to get some hardcore studying done every day. I still must continue to workout (this super hard, so I can go home Thanksgiving and laugh at my brother at how much of a fat ass he’s become yet again). I have to keep going to class…and that’s my life. Not even any Bones on right now, so just Thursday TV for an hour. I continue to search for a job with no success. I better do some more notes for biochem so I can maybe play HG a bit more tonight. I caught a Seedot earlier and already evolved it into a Nuzleaf, so I’m going to try to get a leaf stone by tomorrow. Plus I need to evolve Loudred into Exploud. Then level up my Absol because I’ve been switching my party a lot and want to replace Umbreon with Absol in my main party.Tags: basketball, biochem, college, life
|hard work, and other stuff I guess|
So it’s been forever since I did an actual post about stuff. I’ve decided since I did so well getting stuff done for school yesterday that tonight is my off night, and tomorrow I start studying hardcore for my biochem exam. So, I guess I have time to write about lots of stuff, or at least as much as I can think of.
So the first thing I will write about is a good thing, I guess. Good for me. It makes me happy. So, there’s no denying it. For most of my life, especially my teen years, I was fat. Not fat, but FAT. Technically, by looking at BMI I was obese. However, I never looked as bad as some fat people do because I’m taller so it distributed better or something? I don’t know. What I do know is that at one point in high school I was around 230 lbs, capable of wearing a size 20 even though I usually stuck with an 18, and…well, what more is there to say? Hell, I even had trouble sitting cross legged at times, I’m assuming because the fat made circulation in my legs poor or something. I recall I also couldn’t touch my toes at one point. Well, that’s all the bad. Around my senior year of high school I was around 215, still way heavier than I should have been. However, all of that shit is in the past. My freshman year of high school, just from all the walking/biking I had to do around campus I managed to get under 200 for the first time probably since middle school. Kept it around there sophomore year. Of course during the summer I would end up gaining almost ten back. Then junior year, when I moved into an apartment, I decided that I was going to kick my ass into shape. With the help of my Wii (playing EA Sports Active) and watching my food intake a bit more I managed to drop almost thirty pounds, to get around 180. Senior year I didn’t get a chance to exercise much since I had an upstairs apartment. Then this year, my fifth and final year of undergrad, I decided I was going to finish what I started, and thus far I’ve done pretty well. I’ve dropped ten pounds in the past two and a half months, and I’m only about ten pounds from a healthy BMI. I’m at just under 175 right now, and my first goal is 164. My end weight goal will probably be around the mid 150′s, mostly because I’m calculating muscle into that. Because, you know, I don’t want to be some random skinny chick, I want to be fit, with some abs and buff arms, which is already a work in progress (I flex and you can barely feel any fat, even though I have tons of it on my arms ) And while I’m on the subject, I will promote MyFitnessPal. It’s a website but also an app you can get for free on your smartphone/tablet/whatever, that helps you figure out how many calories you should be consuming daily, and let’s you keep track of your food intake and exercise. I think that has helped me more than anything along with the exercising, because exercising was keeping me at a steady weight, but I wasn’t losing much. So if anyone ever wants to lose weight and stuff, I would definitely suggest it, it helps.
Okay, onto something different now.
I haven’t posted on here in a while about anything but my teeth. I’m really tired right now, so maybe when I have more energy I’ll write a meaningful post. Just random stuff for now.
So…Shark Week was a couple weeks ago. I was going to post something, but I guess I didn’t. I enjoy Shark Week. I’d like if they had some new informational shows though instead of just stories and camera stuff.
School is…tiring. I go three days a week really, and have all my classes within a four hour period of time. Getting from my third to last class is difficult, because the damn professor keeps going after class is technically over so I have to run halfway across campus, trying to push through a few hundred people on the way, all while dodging construction and bikes. Then I get to my last class and have to find an odd seat somewhere. Monday it was by a douche bag frat guy…I didn’t enjoy that. I only have biochem discussion Tuesday, and then nothing Thursday. So today I was doing a bunch of homework and studying, since I had no class.
I like my new apartment. It’s more expensive than my old one, but much nicer and quieter. And front my apartment door to the bus stop is maybe 40 steps. So bus is really close.
I need money. I’ve applied to so many jobs, haven’t heard back from any of the places. I’m thinking about just going and playing my violin on the street. Probably wouldn’t make much money though.
Jan Brewer is a fucking idiot. No explanation is needed for that.
More money issues. I saved a crapload of money buying books online. Didn’t even need them. Had to buy different stuff for the class (online homework, e-book, and a keyboard for my basic musicianship class) so I’ve spent well over 150 dollars that I couldn’t really afford to use.
Football game Saturday, yay…I don’t get the channel it’s on, boo…well, I’m really waiting for basketball in the end. Can’t wait to see how these new recruits do. This is a basketball school. Baseball won the championship this year, basketball needs to get on it so I can get my champ shirt for b-ball to go with my baseball one.
Okay done now. Sleepy. Need to go exercise a bit. Couldn’t heavy exercise today because my left calf. Can still do strength stuff today though. Bye byeTags: apartment, life, money, School
I know I saved some icons from LoK (I was particularly looking for one of the Lin ones) but I couldn’t seem to find them so I’m just going to go with the Gaang. All I will say for now is this: this week’s episode. Holy…I’ll get to it last under the cut so I don’t spoil anything.
I’ll get to what my summer ongoings have been. First off, physics. It’s exhausting. Two days a week, five and a half hours of class straight. But I’m about a third of the way done, and get this, I have an A in there right now. I wasn’t too confident after the exam last week, I was just hoping for a C on it, but I ended up getting a 94. The issue now is keeping that A.
Much earlier in the summer I marathoned Smash with my mom since she hadn’t seen it yet and I had no problem watching it again. It made me realize how difficult it is going to be waiting until next spring for the new season to start. It was amazing.
Yesterday I went to the park to play sand volleyball. It was at night of course because it’s too damn hot to do anything in the summer outside. I hate going to class because I have to wait outside. Anyway, I was the only one who was into it. By the end of the night the bottom half of my pants were completely brown from the sand. I was the only one willing to dive to for it.
Right quick too: Arizona made it to the CWS, and beat Florida State despite being bet against in that game. Going to be up against UCLA next.
Okay, now onto LoK (more…)Tags: avatar, college, School, tv
|I did it|
Posted by Amber on May 10th, 2012
Filed under: School
I can’t believe my luck, I really can’t. First, today I find out that despite rushing through a ten page exam in twenty minutes I still got an A on it, giving me a very solid A for my final grade in my classics class. A good GPA booster. Then just right now my genetics professor posted what the curve is on the Facebook page. I nearly jumped out of my chair for joy when I found out that I passed the class. I got a strong C. In reality there’s a voice in my head not too happy about that because it’s going to mess up my major GPA, but I was so scared, so sure that I could possibly fail the class. I didn’t though, I passed. I’m still going to burn my exams from that class though. I still have my physics final at the community college to take, but I’m not too worried. I have a solid B in there right now, and I just need a C for it to transfer over, it doesn’t affect my GPA. For some reason my genetics lab TA is taking forever to grade the final, despite taking it a couple weeks ago, so I’m not sure what I got in it, but I’m guessing a B. Another good thing that happened is that I got off the wait list for physics over the summer and into the class. I didn’t think it was going to happen, because I was 4th on the wait list at one point, but I got in. Better get back to packing now.
|contacts, buses and finals|
So the professor for microbial genetics put up the grades as of now, and what they are with the curve. I’m not doing as bad as I thought. I have a D without the curve (I thought I had an F) and with the curve I’m just one point shy of a C (I’m at a C-). So now all that’s left is the final… I’m not going to hope for anything better than a C. I want one, I’ve always wanted one, but I’ve known it’s not possible. All I need to do on the final is get around what everyone else does, and I’ll get my passing C. I’ll never have to look at microbial genetics again.
I feel I should write a bit about yesterday, which was horrible. I got something in my left eye like halfway through the day, and since I had my contacts in I couldn’t rub. Normally I tear up for a few minutes and whatever was there gets flushed out, my eyes are good at taking care of themselves. But whatever this was, it wasn’t coming out. All through physics, and the hour and a half it took me to get home, I was in some of the worst pain I’ve ever been in. When I finally got home I took my contacts out and flushed my eye with water for like five minutes. By the evening the pain had almost completely gone away.
Things wouldn’t have been so bad if the buses did suck ass. I knew I’d have to wait like a half hour for the bus because I always just barely miss the one to go home after getting off the first one. However, the one that I was expecting to catch was full, so the drive just drove right by the stop. Another half hour of standing in the sun and heat, with my entire head in pain. Then it got worse. A few minutes before the bus got there I nearly blacked out from everything. I felt like I was going to vomit for a few minutes, I was starting to lose both my sight and hearing and my entire body went tingly and numb. I have no clue how I managed to walk up to the bus when it got there, but luckily some guy gave me his seat. I really wish I had a car, then I would have been home way earlier and in general wouldn’t have to deal with the shit the buses put me through. Well, back to studying. I got a few hours in today, want to get through at least half of the recorded lecture tomorrow.Tags: college, finals, life, School, stupid buses
Posted by Amber on April 19th, 2012
Filed under: School
I’ve gotten through the thick of it. There’s only two more weeks of class left, then three finals and I’m done for the semester. But this past week has just drained me emotionally. I really should say microbial genetics has. Since genetics had me so tired out and my parents were here for the first part of the weekend I only had one day to study for my physics exam Monday. I was worried I didn’t do well, but I ended up getting a B. Apparently that isn’t good enough for some of the people in the lab, because they were complaining during it, but I will gladly take a B. Hell, I would take a C, that’s all I need for it to transfer over to the university. The reason I was so drained was because of the sequence analysis poster project for genetics, that my partner made me nearly shit myself over because she wanted to get together the weekend before it was due and then didn’t even have any of the research done, thus taking up my entire weekend (I don’t think I wrote about this). I worked hard on that damn project. I gave it my all, and although I knew I wouldn’t get the full 300 points, I was hoping for somewhere around 220 or so. You know what I got for all my hard work? 180 points. Barely managed a bloody D. There have been a few classes (2nd semester o-chem, cell biology) that have made me think about just giving up and quitting everything. Giving up on being a microbiology major, just giving up on college. However, this class is just the nail in the coffin. I so badly want to just give up, I’ve lost too much emotionally. I won’t though. I just need to get through the final for the class, just get a C. I may have another year of school left, but all that’s standing between me and my hard earned degree is one physics course and two biochem courses. I just wish I could find the strength to keep the drive going strong, but right now I’m puttering along.
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