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|Fucking brother pt 2|
So of course my brother and his girlfriend couldn’t take care of the dog, so they took it back to the humane society. I’m pretty sure it was put down since it was already a third chance dog when they got it and then they took it back. Then today I found out that they went and adopted on of Pegasus’ brothers, because he was returned. I’m seriously pissed. I’ve wanted an Australian Shepherd for years, hell, I’ve wanted a dog for years. I never planned on getting a puppy necessarily. Pegasus was too perfect and I’m glad my parents got him for me, but then my brother just assumed he needs one too even though he won’t take care of him. He’s a puppy, and if he’s anything like Pegasus he’s going to be very hyper and need a lot of attention. Honestly, I bust my ass for five years, I’m clearly the more responsible one who will take care of my puppy, but he just gets to go and get one, no consequences. He wanted a car last year, my mom ended up buying it for him. She told me today she did because she expected he would take me to and from school. Ha, that never happened. No, he just took it out to go to parties and get back at like 4AM, and to go to the middle of nowhere and steal stop signs. A car is a fucking inanimate object and he can’t even take care of that. It’s already given out once and my grandma paid for that to be fixed. He never paid her back. He was supposed to pay my mom back to for the car, but that never happened. He was also supposed to pay my mom for his phone when he got in in high school. That never happened. His car stopped running a second time. Again, it wasn’t him that paid for the guy to come and work on it. And at that time the guy said he needed to get it fixed fixed or get a new car within a few months because it was going to give out for good. That was in December, he’s done nothing, and it’s not running great. It’s going to give out and I know my family is going to bail him out again and probably buy him a new car. Hey, I’m looking for a job, but I’ll just keep taking the bus until I can get my own car. He’s supposedly getting an apartment this month, hah, yeah right. He’ll need a cosigner for sure, and I’m sure yet again my parents will do that for him. Then since he’s such a fucking dumbass and just spends his money frivolously they won’t have money for rent, and my family will bail him out again. Just watch, he’s going to get sick of this puppy, and my parents are going to end up taking care of him. Then he’ll get another, and another, and it will just keep going. My family will always bail him out. I’ll always have to work my ass off to get what I want.animals, brother, graduation, School
|Shit I’ve been busy|
Title says it all. I won’t even be putting everything here, because it’s getting late and I’m ridiculously tired. Maybe sometime this week…
But yes, so busy. I’m getting ready (hopefully) to graduate, still need to meet with my advisor again. I made an appointment with her once and turns out I needed to go meet with someone else first to apply for degree candidacy, and then go see her. Hopefully I can get it next week. I’m not really sure where all my time has gone, but I’ve been so busy with school stuff. There’s less than a month of school left yet I still have two papers and a presentation I need to do. Then of course there’s finals. And once I make sure I’m graduating there’s a lot to deal with for that. Then I need to start looking for a job, and getting ready to move out of my apartment. There’s so much more, I can’t even think about it all right now.
So…basketball is over, and that makes me sad. Now I have to wait until October for it to start again. And I’m looking forward to next year. Arizona has a great class coming in. We did last year too, but only made it to the Sweet 16, mostly because Ohio State had the refs on their side in the round of 32 and against Arizona. But Wichita State showed them. Coincidentally this also completely fucked up my bracket, I might as well have just symbolically burned the west region. I think, no, I know we can do it next year. National championship. We’re losing a lot of firepower and leadership, yes, but our freshman bigs from this year will have developed even more, and there’s some damn fine talent coming in at the 3 spot (taking the place of Hill/Parrom) in the form of Gordon and Hollis-Jefferson. Plus we will have fixed the biggest problem we had this year, the lack of a true point with McConnell being able to play finally.
I need to go to bed, but I will say one more thing. It shall be about TV. First…HOW DARE YOU. REALLY CARTOON NETWORK, REALLY? HOW DARE YOU. I hate CN with a freaking passion. There was so much more that could have been done with Young Justice. The fact that they prematurely canceled it meant that everything had to be tied up quickly, and then at the end they show Vandal Savage on Apokolips. REALLY? YOU’RE GOING TO TOTALLY INTRODUCE SUCH A BIG POSSIBLE NEW PLOT RIGHT ON YOUR LAST EPISODE? SO MEAN!! Oh, and Wally. HOW CAN YOU KILL OF WALLY? WHY WOULD YOU KILL HIM OFF? CN took of the best show they’ve ever had, and are replacing it with Teen Titans Go!, which looks like complete shit. Maybe it will have a decent plot like YJ and GLTAS did, but it has the same shitty animation as all of CN’s other shows. It’s disgusting how all that other shit gets to stay on but quality stuff like YJ doesn’t. I really hope that someone else picks it up. And the last thing I shall speak of is Doctor Who. I…I’ve never been overly fond of 11, I prefered 10 and the brief appearance of 9, but when he was with the Ponds it worked. Thus far with Clara I haven’t been that impressed. Modern London Clara is so boring compared to Dalek and Victorian Clara, but she has the potential to turn out a good companion. I just hope she isn’t another Martha, because luckily Martha was only the companion for a season, but I doubt Clara will be, and it she turns out to be like Martha, ehh… There needs to be another Donna like character. Donna deserved to have more than one season as a companion. She was unlikable at the beginning but traveling with the Doctor made her a better person, and she ended up saving the entire universe. Okay, done now, need to brush my teeth and go to bed. Class tomorrow, yay.Tags: basketball, doctor who, life, tv
Posted by Amber on January 20th, 2013
Filed under: General
Since I don’t have school tomorrow I was slacking off tonight instead of doing stuff for school, although I already studied a few hours during the day. I usually don’t watch TV on Sunday evenings and for good reason, because there really isn’t much on. NBC was rerunning the first few episodes of this season’s The Biggest Loser, so I just turned that on to watch an episode. I came to realize I really don’t understand that show at all.
Those people on the show have nobody to blame for where they are but themselves. I guess it’s a good thing that they’re trying to get it off, but the fact that they need to be pushed to their limits by a trainer on TV seems stupid. I was kind of around where some of those people are in weight before, but you know what? I didn’t just keep doing what I was doing, I didn’t want change but do nothing about it or give up after effortlessly trying. I got my ass into gear and lost a shitload of weight, on my own, pushed by sheer determination. Was it hard? It was a bitch, it was worse than a bitch. I hurt, but I kept going, because I had a goal in mind.
And some of these people on the show, I mean really? On the red team three people only lost two pounds each. They have this ridiculously planned diet they have to keep to, they exercise for hours a day, but they barely lose anything? It’s usually easier to lose the weight when you’re heavier. I eat whatever the hell I want while staying within my caloric allowance for the day (usually between 1300-1400), I recently started 30 Day Shred so realistically I exercise hardcore for about a half hour a day, with light yoga and general walking to get where I need daily, and I nearly lost two pounds this past week.
And yeah, I’m not nor have I ever been as heavy as most of the people on the show, but you look at the success stories on the MFP forums and there are people who were 300+ pound people who wanted to change, and with nothing more than sheer determination and maybe the support of friends and family (some people don’t even get that), they lost well over 100 pounds to get where they wanted.
So my issue with the show is that it’s just a show about fat people who got themselves in that situation by themselves, who have no willpower or determination to get things done themselves so they have to do so while having America watching their fat asses get yelled at by their nanny-trainers.Tags: tv
|The good, the bad, the FUCKING AWESOME|
So yes, it has indeed been quite some time since I’ve written anything about my ongoings of life that have nothing to do with school. And strangely enough, I find that without school I have time to do things that aren’t school related, that is, have some kind of life. I never realized how badly school took over my life. Well, I did, but that’s not what this is about. This is not school stuff here, this is life stuff. Mostly winter break stuff, and the contents of this post will be all over the place. Also, this will probably be a very long post if I can remember everything. Because I was going to post before the new year, but then I got distracted with stuff and…yeah. Also, because for some reason I got distracted with other things, this post has things from like a week of writing it.basketball, college, Family, football, life, School
|That bummed feeling|
The title says it all. I don’t know why, but the bummed feeling keeps creeping up on me. Well, I can definitely think of things that would make it appear again, but that’s usually right after such an activity (e.g., studying my ass off for my biochem exam only to find I still failed it, just not as badly, meaning that the class I’m putting 90% of my effort into, the only one I need to graduate and had to stay an extra year for, is the only class I’m not passing). I don’t really feel like doing anything, but I do. I’m so damn sick of studying, but I still do it, because I need to pass biochem. Two hours a night, except last night, because I was getting my stupid report for microbiology done. It was somewhat difficult, not because of any extensive research, but because such little research and such general information was needed. I’m so used to writing much more complex papers, this one was just general info on a microbe of our choice. I knew a lot of the stuff already, but I needed sources. Also, I’m sick of my history of rock and pop class, particularly the Friday section, the one day I have to go because attendance is taken. Last week the assignment was to write down ten signs that could be related to and then discuss why with a small group. Took my group like ten minutes tops. Took pretty much all the groups that much time. How long was I stuck in class? About forty minutes, so about a half hour of doing nothing. Then this week we first got into the groups…actually, I’m going to rant about this a bit. I mean, seriously. The class has an assignment where you have to make a group recording of a song. I specifically write on my paper that I HATE rap music, yet the TA puts me in a group where most of the people like rap. Also a group where nobody has any knowledge of how to use Garage Band to make the stupid recording. Oh, and I’m going to choke every single person in my group if I don’t get an A on the damn project. Some groups have already started doing stuff, at least writing lyrics. My group doesn’t even know what genre our song will be, and there’s definitely no lyrics. According to them it’s going to be super easy, we’ll be able to bust it out in a weekend. All of them were also saying how the midterm was difficult. Haha…yeah, no. I spent barely any time studying for that damn thing, yet I’m sure I got an A. This is why I hate gen ed classes. It’s with a bunch of dumb asses that think it’s so difficult. Well, maybe if you had a real major instead of psychology (and yes, I do not believe psych is a real major) where you had to work a bit, or maybe if you came to lecture where the professor gives all the information, or if you had a real major and thus had to learn how to retain information from books, then it wouldn’t be difficult. Then maybe you’d also know that procrastination is a BAD idea, because something will go wrong or you’ll just run out of time. This entire semester I’ve gotten shit done way earlier than due dates, or I’ve started them early and worked on them slowly so I’m not pulling an all nighter before the due date. Damn, my rant got long. My point of this was that my group talked for maybe five minutes then sat there for like a half hour, after which we watched a couple videos of music mashups, then left. The more this semester goes on the more I’m not regretting adding that 400 level micro class next semester. Food Microbiology and Biotechnology, I thought it sounded really interesting when I first heard about it but I didn’t have time for it. Then taking this extra year I just wanted to focus on biochem, but this semester the only micro class I’m taking is gen micro for a better grade, and it’s boring and not challenging. Actually, I really wanted to correct the professor today. He was talking about hear immunity, and the flu shot, and how people who had gotten it were safe from the flu. WRONG DUDE. The influenza vaccine is only to try and prevent the flu, based on the most common influenza strains from the previous flu season. If the flu someone gets is a different strain from the vaccine then it won’t prevent anything. You know where I learned that? Virology, by the professor I first took gen micro from, and I got an A in virology. But I didn’t. Where was I…so yeah, I need an interesting course next semester or I’ll go insane.
Oh, and I hate Cartoon Network even more now than I did before. If you didn’t know (I don’t remember how old my last post is, so I don’t know if I had this in it) they fucking took Young Justice off after two episodes and a three month hiatus for yet another several month long hiatus. I watched the episode that was supposed to air online, and I am so pissed at them for stopping it there. Actually, I’m pissed that the didn’t show that FUCKING EPICNESS on tv, but also because they put it on hiatus at such a suspenseful time.
So…yeah, I’m still bummed. It’s not all from biochem. Part of it could be I’m getting off my happy high from my awesome weekend last weekend, which included apple picking, a delicious apple smoked burger, a huge ass piece of freshly made pie with homemade ice cream, some bomb fudge, apple bread, cider doughnuts, an ass kicking football game, and of course the Red-Blue game filled with promise of a national championship. Regardless of my mood, I know I must continue on. I still have to get some hardcore studying done every day. I still must continue to workout (this super hard, so I can go home Thanksgiving and laugh at my brother at how much of a fat ass he’s become yet again). I have to keep going to class…and that’s my life. Not even any Bones on right now, so just Thursday TV for an hour. I continue to search for a job with no success. I better do some more notes for biochem so I can maybe play HG a bit more tonight. I caught a Seedot earlier and already evolved it into a Nuzleaf, so I’m going to try to get a leaf stone by tomorrow. Plus I need to evolve Loudred into Exploud. Then level up my Absol because I’ve been switching my party a lot and want to replace Umbreon with Absol in my main party.Tags: basketball, biochem, college, life
|hard work, and other stuff I guess|
So it’s been forever since I did an actual post about stuff. I’ve decided since I did so well getting stuff done for school yesterday that tonight is my off night, and tomorrow I start studying hardcore for my biochem exam. So, I guess I have time to write about lots of stuff, or at least as much as I can think of.
So the first thing I will write about is a good thing, I guess. Good for me. It makes me happy. So, there’s no denying it. For most of my life, especially my teen years, I was fat. Not fat, but FAT. Technically, by looking at BMI I was obese. However, I never looked as bad as some fat people do because I’m taller so it distributed better or something? I don’t know. What I do know is that at one point in high school I was around 230 lbs, capable of wearing a size 20 even though I usually stuck with an 18, and…well, what more is there to say? Hell, I even had trouble sitting cross legged at times, I’m assuming because the fat made circulation in my legs poor or something. I recall I also couldn’t touch my toes at one point. Well, that’s all the bad. Around my senior year of high school I was around 215, still way heavier than I should have been. However, all of that shit is in the past. My freshman year of high school, just from all the walking/biking I had to do around campus I managed to get under 200 for the first time probably since middle school. Kept it around there sophomore year. Of course during the summer I would end up gaining almost ten back. Then junior year, when I moved into an apartment, I decided that I was going to kick my ass into shape. With the help of my Wii (playing EA Sports Active) and watching my food intake a bit more I managed to drop almost thirty pounds, to get around 180. Senior year I didn’t get a chance to exercise much since I had an upstairs apartment. Then this year, my fifth and final year of undergrad, I decided I was going to finish what I started, and thus far I’ve done pretty well. I’ve dropped ten pounds in the past two and a half months, and I’m only about ten pounds from a healthy BMI. I’m at just under 175 right now, and my first goal is 164. My end weight goal will probably be around the mid 150′s, mostly because I’m calculating muscle into that. Because, you know, I don’t want to be some random skinny chick, I want to be fit, with some abs and buff arms, which is already a work in progress (I flex and you can barely feel any fat, even though I have tons of it on my arms ) And while I’m on the subject, I will promote MyFitnessPal. It’s a website but also an app you can get for free on your smartphone/tablet/whatever, that helps you figure out how many calories you should be consuming daily, and let’s you keep track of your food intake and exercise. I think that has helped me more than anything along with the exercising, because exercising was keeping me at a steady weight, but I wasn’t losing much. So if anyone ever wants to lose weight and stuff, I would definitely suggest it, it helps.
Okay, onto something different now.
I haven’t posted on here in a while about anything but my teeth. I’m really tired right now, so maybe when I have more energy I’ll write a meaningful post. Just random stuff for now.
So…Shark Week was a couple weeks ago. I was going to post something, but I guess I didn’t. I enjoy Shark Week. I’d like if they had some new informational shows though instead of just stories and camera stuff.
School is…tiring. I go three days a week really, and have all my classes within a four hour period of time. Getting from my third to last class is difficult, because the damn professor keeps going after class is technically over so I have to run halfway across campus, trying to push through a few hundred people on the way, all while dodging construction and bikes. Then I get to my last class and have to find an odd seat somewhere. Monday it was by a douche bag frat guy…I didn’t enjoy that. I only have biochem discussion Tuesday, and then nothing Thursday. So today I was doing a bunch of homework and studying, since I had no class.
I like my new apartment. It’s more expensive than my old one, but much nicer and quieter. And front my apartment door to the bus stop is maybe 40 steps. So bus is really close.
I need money. I’ve applied to so many jobs, haven’t heard back from any of the places. I’m thinking about just going and playing my violin on the street. Probably wouldn’t make much money though.
Jan Brewer is a fucking idiot. No explanation is needed for that.
More money issues. I saved a crapload of money buying books online. Didn’t even need them. Had to buy different stuff for the class (online homework, e-book, and a keyboard for my basic musicianship class) so I’ve spent well over 150 dollars that I couldn’t really afford to use.
Football game Saturday, yay…I don’t get the channel it’s on, boo…well, I’m really waiting for basketball in the end. Can’t wait to see how these new recruits do. This is a basketball school. Baseball won the championship this year, basketball needs to get on it so I can get my champ shirt for b-ball to go with my baseball one.
Okay done now. Sleepy. Need to go exercise a bit. Couldn’t heavy exercise today because my left calf. Can still do strength stuff today though. Bye byeTags: apartment, life, money, School
Posted by Amber on August 2nd, 2012
Filed under: General
I am seriously scared I’m going to need to get a root canal. The dentist said yesterday after all the work that there was so much decay that a root canal might be needed if the pain continued. Well, I woke up at five this morning from the pain, and it hasn’t gone away yet. I don’t really understand. Before I went I wasn’t feeling any pain whatsoever, yet he says that tooth back there is pretty bad. I still don’t understand how my teeth can be this bad. Oh, right, life enjoys making me its bitch. I’ll probably end up going back in tomorrow to get it checked. FML.
UPDATE: After going to get my permanent cap on (and more fillings) the dentist said that the tooth and the area around it is just fine. After this I couldn’t use the left side of my mouth because it was so numb. And of course come sometime in the near future I have to go in to get five cavities filled on the right side of my mouth. Five. I seriously don’t understand why my teeth are so fucked up.Tags: dentist, life
|Why can’t I win?|
Posted by Amber on July 31st, 2012
Filed under: General
My damn mother. Yesterday she drops on me that she made an appointment for me to get my teeth cleaned today since she found a place where cleanings are covered by our insurance. So I go in today for my cleaning…and so much more is to follow. I have to go back tomorrow. Apparently I have several cavities starting to form, at least I think that’s what they dentist said. Although tomorrow I’m going because the last dentist I went to screwed up. It was a quite a few years ago, but someone I chipped one of my back teeth so the roots were exposed and had to get a cap on it. Turns out he screwed it up, so it’s way bigger than it needs to be and doesn’t fit in my mouth properly, and that little pocket where I can’t reach in the back of my mouth is a prime spot for bacteria to screw me. I feel bad for speaking poorly of bacteria, because of all the good that all of my normal flora does for me. But those unwanted buggers just have to show up, and I feel like the way I’m talking about bacteria is a bit strange but I am a microbiology student, so…yeah. So tomorrow I’m assuming the dentist is going to take the cap off, make a mold and put in the temporary, then in a few weeks I go in for the permanent cap to be put on. So instead of a free cleaning my mom has to pay hundreds of dollars, and that’s just the cap.
I feel like I can’t win with my damn teeth. As a kid I didn’t take care of them, but for the past five years or so I’ve made sure to brush twice a day, floss and use mouthwash. I very seldom drink any sugary drinks, I drink water like 98 percent of the time. But whatever, I know I can’t win with my damn teeth. My horrible, overcrowded teeth.Tags: dentist, life
I know I saved some icons from LoK (I was particularly looking for one of the Lin ones) but I couldn’t seem to find them so I’m just going to go with the Gaang. All I will say for now is this: this week’s episode. Holy…I’ll get to it last under the cut so I don’t spoil anything.
I’ll get to what my summer ongoings have been. First off, physics. It’s exhausting. Two days a week, five and a half hours of class straight. But I’m about a third of the way done, and get this, I have an A in there right now. I wasn’t too confident after the exam last week, I was just hoping for a C on it, but I ended up getting a 94. The issue now is keeping that A.
Much earlier in the summer I marathoned Smash with my mom since she hadn’t seen it yet and I had no problem watching it again. It made me realize how difficult it is going to be waiting until next spring for the new season to start. It was amazing.
Yesterday I went to the park to play sand volleyball. It was at night of course because it’s too damn hot to do anything in the summer outside. I hate going to class because I have to wait outside. Anyway, I was the only one who was into it. By the end of the night the bottom half of my pants were completely brown from the sand. I was the only one willing to dive to for it.
Right quick too: Arizona made it to the CWS, and beat Florida State despite being bet against in that game. Going to be up against UCLA next.
Okay, now onto LoK (more…)Tags: avatar, college, School, tv
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