Posted by Amber on April 19th, 2012
Filed under: School

I’ve gotten through the thick of it. There’s only two more weeks of class left, then three finals and I’m done for the semester. But this past week has just drained me emotionally. I really should say microbial genetics has. Since genetics had me so tired out and my parents were here for the first part of the weekend I only had one day to study for my physics exam Monday. I was worried I didn’t do well, but I ended up getting a B. Apparently that isn’t good enough for some of the people in the lab, because they were complaining during it, but I will gladly take a B. Hell, I would take a C, that’s all I need for it to transfer over to the university. The reason I was so drained was because of the sequence analysis poster project for genetics, that my partner made me nearly shit myself over because she wanted to get together the weekend before it was due and then didn’t even have any of the research done, thus taking up my entire weekend (I don’t think I wrote about this). I worked hard on that damn project. I gave it my all, and although I knew I wouldn’t get the full 300 points, I was hoping for somewhere around 220 or so. You know what I got for all my hard work? 180 points. Barely managed a bloody D. There have been a few classes (2nd semester o-chem, cell biology) that have made me think about just giving up and quitting everything. Giving up on being a microbiology major, just giving up on college. However, this class is just the nail in the coffin. I so badly want to just give up, I’ve lost too much emotionally. I won’t though. I just need to get through the final for the class, just get a C. I may have another year of school left, but all that’s standing between me and my hard earned degree is one physics course and two biochem courses. I just wish I could find the strength to keep the drive going strong, but right now I’m puttering along.