I couldn’t decide between this icon and the Olivier one where she’s literally kicking the shit out of someone, but I decided on Azula because, as badass as my beloved revered Olivier is, I feel like I’m channeling Azula a bit more right now in my rage.

It is past midnight. I turned my computer off over an hour ago and attempted to go to bed. But now I’m up again…and it’s all because of that little bitch, otherwise known as my cousin.

I am so damn sick of her right now. She’s 14, yet she acts like she’s a fucking princess who can make whoever she wants kiss her ass. She’s lived with my grandma since she was like three or four, and since my grandma has apparently become soft through the years (I say this only because my mom, aunt and uncle don’t act like this) because my cousin is constantly yelling at her, bossing her around, getting her way, and then still not being happy about it. My grandma said she’s strong willed. No, no she’s not. I’m strong willed, but I’m not a complete asshole, at least not to my grandparents, and mostly parents. Mother, really.

No, my cousin is just a bitch. Tonight it was about going to the school tomorrow, because she’s starting high school, and going to talk to the counselor. So she’s bitching and yelling at my grandma because she doesn’t want to go tomorrow and saying how she’s ruining her life and blah blah blah. I tried to ignore it, when I went to bed, but I was in bed for twenty minutes and could still hear her yelling. So I went out there and yelled at her. And then my grandma got angry because we were fighting, because I was yelling at my bitch cousin for being a bitch to her. So then she got up from the recliner, (where I might add she has to sleep most of the night, because, although my cousin is 14, she still can’t fall asleep alone in her room) put her shoes on, grabbed her phone and keys, and left. I have no clue where the hell she went. I attempted to stop her, but that didn’t work. So I have no clue where the hell she is. But it amazes me how I try to help her, yet whenever I try she gets angry at me.

So now…I don’t know. I think, although I doubt it’ll be possible, I’ll try to stay up until tomorrow morning, and then leave and go over to my parents house as early as I can, whenever the sun is up. Wouldn’t want to get in her way of letting my cousin treat her like a piece of trash even though she’s hardly done anything to make her life crappy. She could have had a piece of shit life if she lived with her mom.

And the title, well, right now I kind of just want to beat the shit out of my cousin because she’s pissing me off.

On a better note…the actual day wasn’t so bad. Went up north with my family, since it’s at least twenty degrees cooler up there and cloudy, and we went to this deer farm up there. I was the only smart one, although I was also the only one who looked on the website where it said to where older clothes, because the deer are very pushy, and if you aren’t facing them and giving them food at that moment they will attempt to eat your shirt, and in my mom’s case nudge your butt. After we finished feeding those pushy deer we walked around the other part of it, which was first the reindeer which look awesome, and then the donkeys, I believe they were Sicilian Miniature Donkeys. I love donkeys. I’m not particularly fond of their appearance, or the sound they make, but they’re cute in their own way, and I love how they’re so calm and just stand there and let you pet them. I especially love petting their ears, they’re so still and fuzzy. There were also some mini horses, the story of them which I won’t get into, and them llamas! Unfortunately I couldn’t pet the llamas, and then one that was close to the fence the stupid kids ahead of us scared away because they had been at the gate laughing at it and made it back away. But I still enjoyed looking at them. I ended up getting a cute little llama figuring, number five in my collection of random llamas stuff. Then before we got home we stopped to Rock Springs and had dinner and pie there. The dinner was awesome, I had chicken and biscuits, which was pretty much a chicken pot pie, or maybe more like chicken and dumplings? Either way it was delicious, and very filling. I like how they did their mashed potatoes, it was almost like they were just a bake potato chopped up and molded into a ball, that’s almost what it tasted like. And at the end, since they’re apparently famous for it, we had some pie. I had chocolate cream. The slice was a lot bigger than I was expecting, and it was delicious. This of course led to my dad pointing out how delicious crepes in France are to which I agreed, because seriously fresh French crepes are possibly the most delicious thing I have ever eaten, and my mother and brother couldn’t give any input, because neither of them have been to France to experience them. I’d honestly go to France just to eat crepes. Probably the French Riviera, because you’re still in France so you get those delicious crepes, but close enough to Italy that you start getting gelaterias around so you can have delicious gelato as well.

It’s only one in the morning…I have at least another four and a half hours before I can go anywhere. Since I’ve unnecessarily been up since seven, I’m crazy tired. I’ll have to ignore that, or try to.

Also, right quick, I need to say I was slightly disappointed in this week’s episode of HOTD. It seemed like there was very little story development and a lot of unnecessary flashback.