Posted by Amber on March 9th, 2009
Filed under: General

I’m a bit out of it today. It rained last night, started around 11:30. I love the rain, I could smell it from inside my dorm room. That’s what I love about my dorm compared to every other dorm, the fact that when you open the door you’re outside, don’t have to deal with those stupid little cramped and stuffy hallways. I wanted to go and just sit outside my door and watch the rain fall, but it was a bit past midnight and I really needed to get to bed. Either way I didn’t bother with my iPod last night, I just listened to the rain as I drifted off to sleep. Then this morning I work up on a rain high, I was like super happy and stuff that isn’t normally me. But eventually that feeling went away, probably about the time I finished my laundry, and I went kind of dull. Then I started to listen to Rain by Priscilla Ahn and I went really mellow, because her music always mellows me out. Seriously, if you’re ever stressed or in a fit of rage or something like that listen to some of her music, it’ll calm you down. I went to my one class of the day, and we didn’t do anything but just go over the various powerpoints since midterm is Wednesday, and then came back. Since then and still up to right now I’m feeling kind of blah. The kind of hyper happy crazy feeling is there, but it’s not actually showing itself. Actually for some reason the past couple days I’ve been rocking back and forth in my chair, or on my bed, wherever I’m sitting. I’m doing it right now. So I’m pretty sure that hyper is trying to get out but it just can’t. Maybe it’ll save itself for Saturday, March the 14. The day that I was supposed to be doing something, but I’m not anymore. Something that I was really looking forward to but then everyone else totally bailed on in December, even though I’m sure their reasons weren’t valid. I don’t really remember what it…oh wait, I do remember what it was. Just something that I had my hopes up for since last May, something along the lines of Ms. Aikman’s WEDDING. The one I originally probably wouldn’t have been in if I hadn’t been sitting across from Abbie when she proposed the idea to Ms. Aikman because the other orchestra seniors had been friends since middle school if not earlier and I had just barely befriended most of them junior year. The wedding that I got the music late for but still practiced my ass off, even when finals started to get close. Yes, the wedding that the quartet broke apart within five hours that Tuesday morning in December. I indeed do remember the day that it happened, because I had to get up very early because I had stupid English at 8, and I was stupid and got online and bam, right there on Facebook was a message from Janelle, saying she couldn’t do it. And then Rebecca replied saying there was no point in just a trio, and it was off. Then everyone else was apparently too busy to email Aikman so I had to do it, which was probably a bad idea because I took some of my anger out in the email. It’s amazing how the quartet was canceled so long ago yet I still continue to go on about it and how pissed I am, although in reality am in no way surprised because I was half expecting them to not pull through, because none of them were actually serious when it came to orchestra. They didn’t care that she had been kind enough to let us play at the wedding, yet a mere three months before they all decide to bail and she has to go with a DJ, even though she had said before she was thinking of live music. NO, NO, I’M NOT STILL CAUGHT UP ON IT AT ALL!!! I’m sure after it passes I should be fine, for the most part, maybe. I don’t actually know.

Well, since I unexpectedly brought that up again my Saturday, instead of the wedding, will consist of getting my hair done and then the ostrich festival. I haven’t actually been paying attention to my hair, so I don’t know if my roots are very bad (I have highlights), but I don’t know what to do about the hair cut. Last time I got it cut it was like 5 months since the last time and I had Erin (my hair person) take like 5 inches off. I kind of like it at the length it’s at right now, and I like how my bangs are right now as well. If my face wasn’t so damn round I’d do it short short, like just above or at my chin (that would be short for me, because the shortest I’ve ever done it was maybe an inch above the shoulder), but it is and I don’t want to look like a complete idiot. We’ll see.

Spring break in four days and counting. I should consider it less than that, maybe three and a half? Wednesday is all midterms, mythology and chem lab (why the hell chem lab has midterms is beyond me, you don’t have them or a final in bio lab and it’s a separate course from the bio lecture) and Friday is field trip day, yay for going out and trying to find baby cacti that are being sheltered by nursing plants! I guess this is really more what you would expect out of an ECOL class (the lab/lecture is cross listed ECOL/MCB 182) and as long as there’s no slicing open dead animals I’m fine. Although on Thursday I don’t know about biology. Right now the second professor is doing lectures, although on Thursday the first one is going to be doing the one for the day, and it will be boring, no doubt about it. Really all I have to get through is two chem classes, two bio classes, two math classes, two midterms, a chem test and a field trip and I’m done for this half of the semester. I’ll have to see if Janelle actually follows through with hanging out, she said agreed with me that we totally need to. Well, I have nothing else to say that I can really think of at the moment that would relevant to anything whatsoever. No, I lied. IF the quartet for the wedding were still going on I’d be a bit worried, because for the past couple days my left pinkie finger has been really bugging me. It feels kind of stiff and there’s a dull pain when I bend it. Since I was playing all first violin parts there was probably a chance I’d have to use my fourth finger, so it might have been a problem. NOT NOW. But that makes me think of a random funny quite from Sailor Moon Abridged, where (and I will just refer to them as their sailor soldier name because it’s annoying putting both the Japanese and American name because not everyone knows the Japanese names and that’s what I’ve become more familiar with) Venus tells Moon “what’s all this mess? Seriously, there’s a broom in the closet, clean your shit up”. Yes, it is awesome. I think I’m done now, I’ll force myself to be done writing random things, and I shall now commence decided what I want for dinner. Either Boston Market and get a pot pie for five dollars, or if I feel like walking a bit farther to Wendy’s and get a chicken sandwich meal with fries and a frosty so I can dip the fries in the Frosty. I’ll probably do that, because I’ve really been craving fries in a Frosty.

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