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If I gave into desire I’d be over 200 pounds
Posted by Amber on March 30th, 2009
Filed under: General


That title may be a bit over dramatic, but still. I’ve been so hungry today. I got up this morning, poured some cereal, ran up to the laundry room to throw my laundry in then came back and ate it. A mere hour later, if it was even an hour, I was hungry again, so I ate some fruit gummy snacks. Feeling the hunger pangs coming right before I went to class I decided to try and ignore them since I only had one class today and it was going to be shorter than normal so I’d eat after. When I got back I ate lunch, a Velveeta and cheese cup (similar to the Easy Mac cups). But then I was hungry maybe like a half hour later. I didn’t eat anything, but then around 2:30 I had some Auntie Anne’s honey flavored bunny crackers, they were organic and didn’t have too many calories so that was fine. Now it’s 3:15ish and I’m hungry again. I want to wait for dinner time to eat anything else, although if I can’t stand it I guess I can eat the last green apple I have. Maybe I should have eaten that in the first place. Yesterday I had one and it was a lot bigger than I expected, so I just called that my lunch since I was pretty full. I finished off the meals my grandpa made for me last night, so I guess tonight I’ll have soup. I could order a pizza or sub, or walk over to Boston Market or Subway, but I don’t want to. I just got into my pajama pants a bit ago and don’t want to get out of them. I swear I need to get guy pants or something, I hate how they make female pants so tight. It’s really only two pairs of my pants that are like that, but it’s still annoying. I only have one pair of pants that are actually the right size for me, the rest are a size too big, since apparently early in the year I went down a size. But I either get looser legs but a very loose waist or tight legs and correct fitting waist.
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Was today wasted or time well spent?
Posted by Amber on March 28th, 2009
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I really really didn’t do much today that most would consider good time management. But because I was so driven I decided to watch Sailor Moon all day, and I finished it! Yes, I have gotten through all 200 episodes!! I finished the last season in technically less than a day. Then because I felt like going on and wanting to be more Sailor Moon savvy than anyone who I know, even though I already am since I’ve seen all 5 seasons, all 200 episodes, in the original Japanese and not the horrible dub, I then decided to watch a couple shorts. So I watched Ami’s First Love and Sailor Moon Special Pretty Soldier-Make Up! Sailor Soldiers. There’s another one that has various shorts, but I was going to wait until next weekend to watch that since it’s like 40 minutes long, and then watch the three movies next weekend as well. But now that I see that SNL is the Alec Baldwin Jonas Brothers rerun I’m going to watch the other short, because the Jonas Brothers ruined SNL the week they were on beyond repair.

Tomorrow I’m going to kick my ass to make sure I study and not screw around on the computer, because that’s what I normally do. There’s a lot more material to study for biology this upcoming test, and it’s plants, which I really don’t like. I need to get a B on the test, at least. Last test I got a 77, but since there was some extra credit the first professor gave because so many people would leave halfway into class when he gave us a break I have extra points that would raise me up to a B. It would be great if I could get a B for the overall grade in the class, it’ll help my GPA out. Wow, I really haven’t done that much today, because I can think of nothing else to write. Except it’s so freakin annoying how my roommate and her boyfriend always call each other baby. She came in this morning after just getting back from spending the night with him at the frat house and she’s on the phone as she walks in. I swear she said baby at least 7 times, it was so annoying.

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If today wasn’t just another great day
Posted by Amber on March 27th, 2009
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Well wasn’t today fun? Didn’t do much, but how great it was. First my lab partner wanted to meet early so we could go over our presentation and so he sent me a text around 6:30, which is a minimum of a half hour earlier than I get up. I wanted a bagel for breakfast and I have, or should say had, three, but I pulled them out today and all of them were moldy. Not even a week old and they were moldy. So I had to have Pop-Tarts. Then when I left this morning, which by the way it was so much fun trying to walk down the stairs of the dorm with my knee, then down the stairs for the underpass, I didn’t realize how cold it was so I was freezing my butt off the entire time I was walking to lab, which took me an extra 5 or so minutes because I was having issues walking without bending my injured knee too much. I forgot to add how I forgot that my knee was hurt and how I tried to sit on it at my desk. That ended up with me jumping up swearing a bit from the pain. At lab I noticed there was a bit of moistness coming through my pants at the knee, and I was worried that it was maybe pus or something which then caused me to worry it was infected which didn’t really make sense to me because right when I got back to the dorm I washed it. I have no clue what the hell it was, because tonight when I checked it I didn’t see or feel anything. I finally found some of the Neosporin like stuff in my first aid kit, so I washed it again then put some of that on it and put fresh band-aid’s on it.
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And it keeps getting worse…
Posted by Amber on March 26th, 2009
Filed under: School


Karma hates me. I don’t know what I did to make this day suck so much. It’s not even noon yet, I’ve haven’t even been up for four hours or out for three hours. First it starts out with the math test. Everything finally clicked for me the Thursday before break when he was explaining everything, and I made sure to study anything that I wasn’t completely sure of. I memorized and made sure I knew how to do all the different derivative rules. But no, no, day can’t go my way. I knew practically nothing on the test. Still, I worked everything out the way I thought it was supposed to be, and I should get partial credit on almost all of them since I’m pretty sure I set them up correctly initially, even if I did the work wrong. I really needed to pass this test, but I’m not sure if I did. If I did it was only a D probably, and that won’t help me at all.
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I’m kind of huh, yeah… right now
Posted by Amber on March 25th, 2009
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Well first thing on my mind, I’m amazed at myself. Mostly of how well I can BS a lab report even though I didn’t do the experiment correctly. I was hoping for at least a C on my chem lab midterm, ended up getting an 86%. Seriously, I was amazed. I had no damn clue what I was doing, yet I still managed a B? I’m pretty sure I’ll end up getting a B in there, since I’ve gotten B’s on all my lab reports. I guess it isn’t too bad, I don’t like it that much, although today we finally started actually working with chemicals, 9 weeks into the semester. I freaked out slightly the the hydrogen started to react with the powder that was put in it, which I don’t actually know the identity of but would assume was some type of chlorine mixture. Obviously not chlorine itself because that would kind of kill you.
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I might have screwed myself over
Posted by Amber on March 22nd, 2009
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Break is pretty much over. I’ve been back at the dorm for a few hours now. The day sucked, kind of. And yesterday evening kind of sucked. It wasn’t too bad at first, because I went to the Science Center with my family. It was pretty fun, it’s always pretty fun, although they took away the big room with all the really cool stuff on the third floor and replaced it with the digital room, which was alright. But the best thing was the show we went to. Last time I went they were redoing the planetarium, and it was open and was AMAZING. Saw Wonders of the Universe, it was so awesome. I love astronomy, if it didn’t take so much physics I’d double major in it or something. I guess I could still take some courses about it. I wanted to join the Astronomy Club this year at school, but the stupid site with the list of clubs didn’t have any information on it. I learned some things I didn’t know, like how the Phoenix Mars lander, that was of course launched by UA with NASA, froze a few months ago. And although they said it, I refuse to say there are 8 planets. There are 9 planets, Pluto was unfairly demoted I say!
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You have got to be fucking kidding me!
Posted by Amber on March 17th, 2009
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EVIL!!! My theory was that the portal to Hell was to be opened at the release day of High School Musical 3, but how wrong I was. Apparently it was only the beginning to what would come. Watching TV today, home alone with my dog in the room with me, it came on. I was so surprised, although mostly pissed off I literally yelled ‘What the hell? Are you SERIOUS?!” Yes. I am sorry sane people of the world, but it has sadly, unfortunately happened. Yes, Hanna Montana: The Movie. Typing, even just the thought of it, makes me shudder in fear and disgust. Seriously, why the hell would this occur? HSM trilogy was bad enough, Hannah Montana in 3-D, Jonas Brothers in 3-D, all of it was just too much. But this…this is pushing it to a whole new level of torture. Hannah Montana is the epitome of mediocrity when it comes to music, or acting for that matter. Miley Cyrus pisses me off, and Disney pisses me off in the process. I’m sorry but what happened to quality Disney? When Disney Channel wasn’t all these damn teen or “tween” sitcoms, when it was filled with good quality awesome cartoons, what happened to that? When they weren’t shooting out tons of mediocre “stars” who are only making a mockery out of what is supposed to be talent. It just pisses me off. If you haven’t seen the trailer for it yet please watch in disgust below. Be warned, it’s all I can say.
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YAY!!!
Posted by Amber on March 13th, 2009
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I AM OFFICIALLY ON SPRING BREAK!!! After a VERY tiring lab I am back at the dorm and waiting for my mom to come and get me to go back home for the week. I never thought this week was going to end, it’s been going SO slow. But finally it has come to an end, and it wasn’t too bad an ending. I must say Tucson, no probably Arizona in general has some really crappy parks, they’re all desert. But that’s what we did, we went to a huge park, which really seemed like it was more for hikers, and did the counting cacti thing. For some reason, probably because it was fairly cheap, they rented a school bus to take us there. I kind of felt bad for the people taller than me, because I could barely fit in the seat without slanting my legs some. Then we got to the park, and we had to hike some. The TA said we had to get to the top of this rather large hill, and although some thought he was joking he wasn’t. Funny thing is it was harder going down than it was going up, probably all the loose rocks. We then commenced looking for little cacti, which may I say isn’t easy. You know why everyone always noticed the big saguaro? Because the little ones are EXTREMELY difficult to find, especially if you’re looking for some under 28 inches. Even though my group lied about the height on a few of them we found 15 of the saguaro and barrel cacti. Luckily we didn’t spot any rattle snakes, although one of my group members said he saw something like looked like a snake that was moving away from us. I was freaking out some, especially when there were a bunch of holes in the ground that a snake could pop out of any moment. This is perhaps one reason I didn’t mind having an early morning lab, it was probably still too cool outside for the rattlesnakes to come out and sun. However, when we were walking back to the main path we did see a little rabbit running away, it was so cute! The entire hiking thing was tiring, but then when I got back to campus (after the bus having some issues getting started), I had to climb four flights of stairs to get back to the classroom. And then when that was over, because I didn’t want to wait for the elevator to come back up, I took the stair down. At that point my legs felt like jelly. Then I had to ride my bike about a mile back to my dorm, and when I got back I kicked the stupid tennis shoes off (I hate wearing tennis shoes, my toes are too cramped up in them and there’s no ventilation like flip flops), splashed some cold water on my face, drank about half a pint of water, then collapsed on the bed for a few minutes. I actually think I’m going to lay down a bit more before my mom gets here, although I have to have enough time to finish packing and change out my sheets so I can wash them at home. And I need to pack my backpack with everything I need to study over break, which includes math, chemistry and biology. Won’t that be fun? I probably won’t get around (much at least) to any of my sciences, but I have a math test on the Thursday I get back so I REALLY need to study. It’s strange, yesterday, when only like 10 people showed up to class, and he went over what would be on the test, and gave examples of the different rules for derivatives and everything I suddenly got it. I still don’t completely understand any of it, except the really basic first couple rules for derivatives, but somehow I managed to get a clearer picture. With a bit, or a lot, of studying I should be able to pull a passing grade on the next test, which I really need. And then because I made a bunch of stupid mistakes on my chem test, like really stupid mistakes, I’m going to try and learn some of the material we’re doing now, which is really just Lewis Structures. Biology I’m not as worried about, since I got a high C on the last test, although this plant stuff is harder. I’m not good with plant biology, never have been.
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I want to be done already
Posted by Amber on March 11th, 2009
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I haven’t felt this crappy in ages. I haven’t had a day I could straight out call completely miserable in ages, probably over a year, but today seemed just like one of those hellish days I experienced so much in high school. It was all because of chemistry. I had my midterm in chem lab today, I’m going to be lucky if I get a C. The written portion was so pointless, most of it was just safety stuff that I had to do at the beginning of the course online. Still, the way the questions counted point wise I was lucky if I got a C on that. Then there was the practical, where we had to do an actual experiment. I have no damn clue if I did it right, I know I didn’t get the correct absorbency data from the spectrometer, and thus I had pretty much nothing in my results section of the write up and I had to BS most of the rest of it. Hopefully my intro and experiment section will be enough to get me a C, although I doubt it. I’ve been getting pretty low grades of my normal reports and those I actually understood some. But yeah, I left that classroom feeling like complete crap. I decided to get Pei Wei because I kind of felt like it and thought it would help me feel better. It maybe helped a bit, but I was so pissed off at myself that I was still pretty down. I watched a couple episodes of SMA to get some laughs in, although I didn’t laugh too much. And my night got a bit better because I somehow managed to get right in to the place I watch anime and finished off Sailor Moon S. I’m finally on to SuperS, I watched one episode before Mythbusters came on. But naturally it isn’t a new one, again. I wish they’d have new episodes already. FINALLY Bones is new again tomorrow, and they’re going to have 11 weeks straight or something like that of new episodes straight.
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WHOOUHWHA!!
Posted by Amber on March 9th, 2009
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I’m a bit out of it today. It rained last night, started around 11:30. I love the rain, I could smell it from inside my dorm room. That’s what I love about my dorm compared to every other dorm, the fact that when you open the door you’re outside, don’t have to deal with those stupid little cramped and stuffy hallways. I wanted to go and just sit outside my door and watch the rain fall, but it was a bit past midnight and I really needed to get to bed. Either way I didn’t bother with my iPod last night, I just listened to the rain as I drifted off to sleep. Then this morning I work up on a rain high, I was like super happy and stuff that isn’t normally me. But eventually that feeling went away, probably about the time I finished my laundry, and I went kind of dull. Then I started to listen to Rain by Priscilla Ahn and I went really mellow, because her music always mellows me out. Seriously, if you’re ever stressed or in a fit of rage or something like that listen to some of her music, it’ll calm you down. I went to my one class of the day, and we didn’t do anything but just go over the various powerpoints since midterm is Wednesday, and then came back. Since then and still up to right now I’m feeling kind of blah. The kind of hyper happy crazy feeling is there, but it’s not actually showing itself. Actually for some reason the past couple days I’ve been rocking back and forth in my chair, or on my bed, wherever I’m sitting. I’m doing it right now. So I’m pretty sure that hyper is trying to get out but it just can’t. Maybe it’ll save itself for Saturday, March the 14. The day that I was supposed to be doing something, but I’m not anymore. Something that I was really looking forward to but then everyone else totally bailed on in December, even though I’m sure their reasons weren’t valid. I don’t really remember what it…oh wait, I do remember what it was. Just something that I had my hopes up for since last May, something along the lines of Ms. Aikman’s WEDDING. The one I originally probably wouldn’t have been in if I hadn’t been sitting across from Abbie when she proposed the idea to Ms. Aikman because the other orchestra seniors had been friends since middle school if not earlier and I had just barely befriended most of them junior year. The wedding that I got the music late for but still practiced my ass off, even when finals started to get close. Yes, the wedding that the quartet broke apart within five hours that Tuesday morning in December. I indeed do remember the day that it happened, because I had to get up very early because I had stupid English at 8, and I was stupid and got online and bam, right there on Facebook was a message from Janelle, saying she couldn’t do it. And then Rebecca replied saying there was no point in just a trio, and it was off. Then everyone else was apparently too busy to email Aikman so I had to do it, which was probably a bad idea because I took some of my anger out in the email. It’s amazing how the quartet was canceled so long ago yet I still continue to go on about it and how pissed I am, although in reality am in no way surprised because I was half expecting them to not pull through, because none of them were actually serious when it came to orchestra. They didn’t care that she had been kind enough to let us play at the wedding, yet a mere three months before they all decide to bail and she has to go with a DJ, even though she had said before she was thinking of live music. NO, NO, I’M NOT STILL CAUGHT UP ON IT AT ALL!!! I’m sure after it passes I should be fine, for the most part, maybe. I don’t actually know.
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