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Posted by Amber in General on March 18th, 2014
March Madness. My Cats are a 1 seed. We’ve had a hell of a year. Some heartbreak. But that national championship is ours. Stick to the strong defense, get some offense going, we’ll be unstoppable. But that post isn’t really about that. I just thought I needed to open with something.
I haven’t posted in forever because…well, nothing has happened in my life. I’m working at a job I hate, but hopefully that won’t be much longer because I have an interview next week. And…my puppy is no longer a puppy, his birthday was last month. Still just as dopey though. Went to the Ren Fest, it was fun. Seriously nothing else to report, just thought I should update because it’s been so long. Hopefully I’m post more frequently and with something better.
Seriously though, I love March Madness.
Posted by Amber in General on December 10th, 2013
I have no other explanation for it, it must be Christmas magic. After months of nothing, just sitting around the house doing nothing but getting fat, the magic of the holidays has turned my fortunes around. My beloved Wildcats are number one in the nation right now, and I have no doubt that if this team stops with the sloppy play they’re a Final Four team, a national championship isn’t crazy to think of either. There’s talent, the balance of new guys and veterans, vastly improved old players…I could write an entire post about the basketball team, but I’ll leave it at that. Then, after not getting the job I wanted so badly by one or two people and not getting another because of a hiring freeze, the hiring freeze is over and I have a job. It’s seasonal, and part time, but anything is better than nothing. I need money coming in, I have A LOT of student loans to pay off. Then today I finally got the letter that my application was approved to take the Registered Sanitarian examination. Obviously I’m going to study my ass off for it, like finals studying even though I no longer have finals (I’m not going to lie, I kind of miss them), but I’m hoping this Christmas magic pushes into January and I pass the exam. I do that and I’m almost guaranteed the job I’ve been working towards.
Oh, and I have a monster dog…puppy. He doesn’t look like a puppy. I know, he’s ten months old so he really wouldn’t look like a puppy anymore, but he still has some growing to do and he’s already a bit over 80 pounds. I’m going to assume my guess that he’ll top off around 85 lbs will be right. I wanted a big dog, and I’m going to get one. I just wish he would listen more. Definitely the most hard-headed, strong willed pup I have ever come across.
Then there’s that getting fat thing I mentioned…looks like I’m going to have to initiate self control mode. These next few weeks I’ll be baking all sorts of cookies, but I will have to resist eating them. I usually don’t have a problem not overindulging, but last year I gained 7 lbs over the holidays, and if I do that I’m going to have to up to a bigger pant size, after all that work last year to lose 31 lbs.
Posted by Amber in General on October 1st, 2013
I haven’t posted anything in months because I have nothing to write about. Absolutely nothing. My life is just like it was in July. Except I’m not really talking to my mother because she decided to choose her song of a bitch fucking douchebaggy asshole of a husband over her kids. Other than that, nothing. Been looking for a job, have to start paying my student loans back in like a month but still haven’t found anything. My puppy is a puppy in age alone now. Pegasus is just under eight months old but he’s the biggest dog in the house. I’m not completely sure how much he weighs, but when I took him to get weighed when he was just shy of seven months he was already at 70lbs. I’m working out details for his Halloween costume, and hopefully I can win some prize in the Petsmart contest. I painted my grandparent’s kitchen and am working on the dining room slowly. A lot of the time the only reason I go out of the house is to walk Pegasus, which I’ve now started doing in both the morning and evening so that he isn’t as hyper at night. Red-Blue game is in a couple weeks which is great because it’s depressing to watch the football team with how badly the QB is. Defense has shaped up nicely this year though. Smash, The Office and Malibu Country are off the air, so I’m still seeing which shows I’m going to pick up to watch along with my already established shows, which is just Bones and Parks and Rec. Oh, and Korra. I’m enoying it, I really hope Eska isn’t gone now that they left the South because I’m loving Aubrey Plaza voicing her. Then in November Doctor Who and Sherlock start back up. And in the spring Orphan Black. As of right now I’m certain I’ll be sticking with Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D., and that’s really it. I wasn’t too impressed with The Goldbergs, although that one with Rebel Wilson looks like it’ll be funny. I’ve been trying to catch up on anime which I was way behind on. I just need to finish Chiyahafuru from the spring to be done with that season. I started and got caught up on Monogatari pretty fast from summer. I still need to start Silver Spoon. I guess I have lots of time…
|The real world sucks|
Posted by Amber in General on July 9th, 2013
Well it’s been over two months since I’ve posted anything. Nothing much has happened. Life sucks, that’s all I can say. Graduation was amazing, I’m so glad that I went to the university one, even if I was forced to stand in that hot corridor of the football stadium with thousands of other people crammed in there with me for like 40 minutes because the ceremony started late. The weather that day was perfect, a storm I thought was going to come in ended up changing direction so there was no rain, just a nice breeze. The end was ridiculously amazing, you can find videos on Youtube. The CALS ceremony next day wasn’t too bad. I somehow ended up with two idiots in front of me. Got a nice little plaque and an alumni pin. A few weeks later my diploma came in the mail. It’s currently sitting in a drawer so it doesn’t get ruined, because nice frames are expensive. I want one that says University of Arizona on it, and the cheapest one ends up totaling over $100 with tax and everything, so that has to wait. And it will be waiting for awhile I bet, because…well, because the real world sucks.
|Fucking brother pt 2|
So of course my brother and his girlfriend couldn’t take care of the dog, so they took it back to the humane society. I’m pretty sure it was put down since it was already a third chance dog when they got it and then they took it back. Then today I found out that they went and adopted on of Pegasus’ brothers, because he was returned. I’m seriously pissed. I’ve wanted an Australian Shepherd for years, hell, I’ve wanted a dog for years. I never planned on getting a puppy necessarily. Pegasus was too perfect and I’m glad my parents got him for me, but then my brother just assumed he needs one too even though he won’t take care of him. He’s a puppy, and if he’s anything like Pegasus he’s going to be very hyper and need a lot of attention. Honestly, I bust my ass for five years, I’m clearly the more responsible one who will take care of my puppy, but he just gets to go and get one, no consequences. He wanted a car last year, my mom ended up buying it for him. She told me today she did because she expected he would take me to and from school. Ha, that never happened. No, he just took it out to go to parties and get back at like 4AM, and to go to the middle of nowhere and steal stop signs. A car is a fucking inanimate object and he can’t even take care of that. It’s already given out once and my grandma paid for that to be fixed. He never paid her back. He was supposed to pay my mom back to for the car, but that never happened. He was also supposed to pay my mom for his phone when he got in in high school. That never happened. His car stopped running a second time. Again, it wasn’t him that paid for the guy to come and work on it. And at that time the guy said he needed to get it fixed fixed or get a new car within a few months because it was going to give out for good. That was in December, he’s done nothing, and it’s not running great. It’s going to give out and I know my family is going to bail him out again and probably buy him a new car. Hey, I’m looking for a job, but I’ll just keep taking the bus until I can get my own car. He’s supposedly getting an apartment this month, hah, yeah right. He’ll need a cosigner for sure, and I’m sure yet again my parents will do that for him. Then since he’s such a fucking dumbass and just spends his money frivolously they won’t have money for rent, and my family will bail him out again. Just watch, he’s going to get sick of this puppy, and my parents are going to end up taking care of him. Then he’ll get another, and another, and it will just keep going. My family will always bail him out. I’ll always have to work my ass off to get what I want.
Posted by Amber in Family on April 27th, 2013
First off, I’m pissed at all of my family to some extent for some reason at this time, and I will kind of get into why here.
So I enjoy perusing through shelter sites to see what kind of dogs they have. I know I can’t really afford it right now, but I liked looking for the future. Well, this past week I was looking in the humane society page and there he was. Possibly the most perfect dog for me without being my perfect dog. His name was Pegasus, and he was an Australian Shepherd (my dream dog) and Rottie mix. His face looked mostly Rottie, but he had a blue stripe in the middle of his face, and his body looked like a blue merle Aussie, and he’s fluffy like an Aussie. I sent a picture to my mom and grandma, because I thought he was so cute. Well, turns out my mom found my graduation present. The next day she sends me a picture of her holding him. She adopted him for me, she got me a fucking puppy for my graduation present! I still have a few more weeks until I move back up there so I haven’t seen him yet, but my parents are bringing him down after he gets his shots on Tuesday. He and his siblings got taken quickly, when she went to get him one of his brothers was being looked at, and his only sister got taken that day too within two days of being there. He had barely been neutered and hadn’t got a chance to get his first vaccinations, so they have to carry him everywhere for now. I checked the page again today and his last two brothers were taken. They were all cute, but he was so unique looking.
I asked my mom if it was really okay because I wouldn’t be able to help out too much with him financially until I get a job, which hopefully will be soon. But she said it was her decision to get him for me and she knew I would take care of him, which obviously I will.
Then we get to my brother. My fucking brother. I silently laugh because I know he’ll be stuck as he is for the rest of his life, working in fast food, although not living with my parents now. Why? Because apparently he was jealous that my parents got me a puppy, so he and his girlfriend who he moved in to the house in like August or September went and adopted a dog, a 2 year old coonhound who is super hyper. My parents were really angry and he told them that it would only be for a month, because apparently they’re getting an apartment. Hah, good luck with that. He’s only 20 but his credit sucks ass, because he sucks at managing money. He had his first bank account closed on him because he kept overdrawing. He was always late on credit card payments, and he defaulted on his student loans, which wasn’t even 2k. Not to mention that money he stole from me last year (for which he should be in jail. I think everyone would be happier if he was). I doubt his girlfriend, who he hasn’t been with for even a year, has that great of credit. They both just blow their money left and right. His room looks like a damn game room, with multiple consoles and a ridiculous sound system. But back to the dog. I guess my parents hear nothing but him and his girlfriend telling it to be quiet or trying to calm down, and last night they let it out of the room because it was tearing stuff apart. And today it was overstimulating poor Pegasus and wouldn’t leave him alone. When his girlfriend finally took it back in the room my poor puppy was able to sleep. My mom said that they bought it a kennel, but it’s WAY too small, dog can’t even stand up in it. My brother the cheapskate when it comes to anything that isn’t for him or his girlfriend probably bought the cheapest one he could get. And the thing is that he already had a dog, which pisses me off more. He begged my parents to let him get Zoe when he was in high school and they let him have her. Well, just like my cousin and her dog, he had the honeymoon period when she was a puppy puppy, and then she grew up and he ignored her. That was actually his reasoning for getting a hyper active dog that’s already been turned in twice, because Zoe isn’t really his dog anymore. That was HIS damn fault, nobody else. HE chose to ignore her. She’s barely ever allowed in his room because his girlfriend gets jealous. When he gets back from work he just walks right past her even though she greets him, goes into his room and closes the door. He also has a cat, but he never pays any attention to her either.
I have two cats that have been living with me in my apartment for three years. I take care of them. I keep to their feeding schedule, I clean their litter, I play with them and get forced to lay on the couch for hours at a time because they want to take a nap on me. I’m more than willing to do take care of my puppy. I’m ready to train him to be well behaved, to walk him as much as need be since Aussie’s are an energetic breed, to clean up after him, and when I get a job to pay for what he needs.
Funny thing about him. He’s pretty smart I guess, because he’s only had to accidents inside and usually goes to the door and whimpers when he needs to go to the bathroom. But I heard from my mom that the first night he followed Zoe into my brother’s room and peed and shit in there. Good, he didn’t need to be in there anyway. It’s only a matter of time until my brother and his girlfriend get sick of the dog, but they won’t be pawning it off on my parents, or so my mother says. My dad gave them 30 days to either get rid of the dog or move out. I don’t think he should have the right to say that because he’s been unemployed for ages and isn’t paying for anything in the house, but I’ve been saying they need to move out. Supposedly she moved in there because (not sure if I mentioned this before?) her mother disowned her for moving into a dorm for college, and then she couldn’t stay at the dorm because her roommate wasn’t there very often and she couldn’t sleep in there by herself. But she’s been on speaking terms with her mother for awhile, at least since Thanksgiving, so I don’t see why they don’t move over there. She can deal with their shit.
Seriously though, fuck him. I laugh. My father’s pride and joy when we were growing up while he treated me like complete shit. Well, look at us now, all grown up. What have I accomplished in the past year? I’ve lost 30 pounds, and am about to graduate from college and hopefully get a good paying job in my field. What has he done? Dropped out of community college, got promoted at his fast food job only to be demoted again, moved his girlfriend into his tiny room at my parents’ house, gained about 20 pounds and gotten more tattoos (he said he was going to stop at a half sleeve because they can’t show at work, but he just got one on his forearm) and bigger gauges, and because of that he’ll be stuck in a dead end job for the rest of his life. He lives without thinking about consequences, and as a result his car, which my parents have been telling him for MONTHS needs to be fixed, is going to give out at any time, and my family said they’re done helping him out. We’ll see about that.
See, they should have let me send him to prison for stealing and committing identity fraud. It would have been easier on everyone, but they’re suffering. I wish they would figure out I tend to be right. Except with my March Madness bracket. Damn West region really fucked me up, and I did not see FGCU going that far. I can’t wait until CBB starts again. I might go to see a Mercury game this summer though, with Brittney Griner they’re going to be ridiculous.
|Told them so|
Posted by Amber in Family on April 17th, 2013
I don’t know if I’ve ever explained any of this, so before I go into what should be a really short post, I’ll give some background info. For TLDR, skip the huge paragraph.
|Shit I’ve been busy|
Title says it all. I won’t even be putting everything here, because it’s getting late and I’m ridiculously tired. Maybe sometime this week…
But yes, so busy. I’m getting ready (hopefully) to graduate, still need to meet with my advisor again. I made an appointment with her once and turns out I needed to go meet with someone else first to apply for degree candidacy, and then go see her. Hopefully I can get it next week. I’m not really sure where all my time has gone, but I’ve been so busy with school stuff. There’s less than a month of school left yet I still have two papers and a presentation I need to do. Then of course there’s finals. And once I make sure I’m graduating there’s a lot to deal with for that. Then I need to start looking for a job, and getting ready to move out of my apartment. There’s so much more, I can’t even think about it all right now.
So…basketball is over, and that makes me sad. Now I have to wait until October for it to start again. And I’m looking forward to next year. Arizona has a great class coming in. We did last year too, but only made it to the Sweet 16, mostly because Ohio State had the refs on their side in the round of 32 and against Arizona. But Wichita State showed them. Coincidentally this also completely fucked up my bracket, I might as well have just symbolically burned the west region. I think, no, I know we can do it next year. National championship. We’re losing a lot of firepower and leadership, yes, but our freshman bigs from this year will have developed even more, and there’s some damn fine talent coming in at the 3 spot (taking the place of Hill/Parrom) in the form of Gordon and Hollis-Jefferson. Plus we will have fixed the biggest problem we had this year, the lack of a true point with McConnell being able to play finally.
I need to go to bed, but I will say one more thing. It shall be about TV. First…HOW DARE YOU. REALLY CARTOON NETWORK, REALLY? HOW DARE YOU. I hate CN with a freaking passion. There was so much more that could have been done with Young Justice. The fact that they prematurely canceled it meant that everything had to be tied up quickly, and then at the end they show Vandal Savage on Apokolips. REALLY? YOU’RE GOING TO TOTALLY INTRODUCE SUCH A BIG POSSIBLE NEW PLOT RIGHT ON YOUR LAST EPISODE? SO MEAN!! Oh, and Wally. HOW CAN YOU KILL OF WALLY? WHY WOULD YOU KILL HIM OFF? CN took of the best show they’ve ever had, and are replacing it with Teen Titans Go!, which looks like complete shit. Maybe it will have a decent plot like YJ and GLTAS did, but it has the same shitty animation as all of CN’s other shows. It’s disgusting how all that other shit gets to stay on but quality stuff like YJ doesn’t. I really hope that someone else picks it up. And the last thing I shall speak of is Doctor Who. I…I’ve never been overly fond of 11, I prefered 10 and the brief appearance of 9, but when he was with the Ponds it worked. Thus far with Clara I haven’t been that impressed. Modern London Clara is so boring compared to Dalek and Victorian Clara, but she has the potential to turn out a good companion. I just hope she isn’t another Martha, because luckily Martha was only the companion for a season, but I doubt Clara will be, and it she turns out to be like Martha, ehh… There needs to be another Donna like character. Donna deserved to have more than one season as a companion. She was unlikable at the beginning but traveling with the Doctor made her a better person, and she ended up saving the entire universe. Okay, done now, need to brush my teeth and go to bed. Class tomorrow, yay.
Posted by Amber in General on January 20th, 2013
Since I don’t have school tomorrow I was slacking off tonight instead of doing stuff for school, although I already studied a few hours during the day. I usually don’t watch TV on Sunday evenings and for good reason, because there really isn’t much on. NBC was rerunning the first few episodes of this season’s The Biggest Loser, so I just turned that on to watch an episode. I came to realize I really don’t understand that show at all.
Those people on the show have nobody to blame for where they are but themselves. I guess it’s a good thing that they’re trying to get it off, but the fact that they need to be pushed to their limits by a trainer on TV seems stupid. I was kind of around where some of those people are in weight before, but you know what? I didn’t just keep doing what I was doing, I didn’t want change but do nothing about it or give up after effortlessly trying. I got my ass into gear and lost a shitload of weight, on my own, pushed by sheer determination. Was it hard? It was a bitch, it was worse than a bitch. I hurt, but I kept going, because I had a goal in mind.
And some of these people on the show, I mean really? On the red team three people only lost two pounds each. They have this ridiculously planned diet they have to keep to, they exercise for hours a day, but they barely lose anything? It’s usually easier to lose the weight when you’re heavier. I eat whatever the hell I want while staying within my caloric allowance for the day (usually between 1300-1400), I recently started 30 Day Shred so realistically I exercise hardcore for about a half hour a day, with light yoga and general walking to get where I need daily, and I nearly lost two pounds this past week.
And yeah, I’m not nor have I ever been as heavy as most of the people on the show, but you look at the success stories on the MFP forums and there are people who were 300+ pound people who wanted to change, and with nothing more than sheer determination and maybe the support of friends and family (some people don’t even get that), they lost well over 100 pounds to get where they wanted.
So my issue with the show is that it’s just a show about fat people who got themselves in that situation by themselves, who have no willpower or determination to get things done themselves so they have to do so while having America watching their fat asses get yelled at by their nanny-trainers.
|The good, the bad, the FUCKING AWESOME|
So yes, it has indeed been quite some time since I’ve written anything about my ongoings of life that have nothing to do with school. And strangely enough, I find that without school I have time to do things that aren’t school related, that is, have some kind of life. I never realized how badly school took over my life. Well, I did, but that’s not what this is about. This is not school stuff here, this is life stuff. Mostly winter break stuff, and the contents of this post will be all over the place. Also, this will probably be a very long post if I can remember everything. Because I was going to post before the new year, but then I got distracted with stuff and…yeah. Also, because for some reason I got distracted with other things, this post has things from like a week of writing it.
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